You ever wake up in a good mood and think about your future and how it can be amazing? Yup. That's me right now. My husband (Hiromi) and I have always planned on leaving NY and starting our own business somewhere. Just the thought of starting new somewhere else, it brings a chill down my spine. New York will always be a special place to me and my husband, because this is where we basically grew up at and where we met each other. Mind you, there have been many ups and downs throughout the years of growing up here --- dealing with moving around a lot and having financial difficulties. NY has always been a place considered to be the most amazing and culturally diverse -- where people come from so many different countries in hopes of having a better future. Well, at least for my family...that was our goal. Unfortunately, that didn't go so well as planned as we had struggled to live here rather than back home. But, anyways...ignore my babbling. This whole post is about the future...and not the past.
So, I started looking into jobs in a different state and looking at houses. It got me in a really good mood thinking about all the good that can come to leaving NY -- like a weight being lifted off your shoulders and starting new. I can't wait to finally have a house of my own -- with a backyard and garage -- and a great job and have our kids be in a great school growing up. All these thoughts in my head definitely seem a lot more clearer than it did a couple months ago. Maybe it's because my husband and I have managed to have a work schedule that didn't need a babysitter for our youngest and we manage to still spend some time together. I mean, it's tough. It's tough to have two full time working parents with two kids who are 5 years apart. But, even through all the downs we've had...the future is what we aim for and the goal of finally just up and leaving this place and starting new and providing everything we can for our kids that WE never had a chance to have...it definitely helps out a lot.
The thing I'm trying to say is...
I think it IS possible. No.
IT DEFINITELY IS POSSIBLE.
As long as we keep believing in a better future for our kids, I believe that it will all finally come true. The house with the white picket, a backyard, that nice family car, a great job and a great neighborhood. I think we deserve that. I think everybody deserves that bit of happiness. But, in my head...and in my heart, at this moment...my whole being is enlightened at the fact that our dreams will finally come true. And it may seem that it might take maybe another year or so...but, just the thought of our future being better than our parents'...that alone, is enough. And it all may seem cheesy to people about my thoughts about our future, but this is it. This is the happiness me and my husband and kids need. And I love my family. Growing up the way I did, I can never take them for granted. It's hard when you feel like time is against you...but, I know in the end, everything will fall into place...
Just the way it was meant to be.
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Happiness radiates like the fragrance from a flower and draws all good things towards you.
- Maharishi Mahesh Yogi
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